After 19 years, I’m moving out of the only house I’ve ever lived in.
I used to be bittersweet about this….when I was younger, I used to leave notes around the house to my parents about why I loved living in this house. Now that I’m more mature and grown up, I realize that my parents have an empty nest and it’s time for them to move into their dream home! I’m happy for them, and the moving process has been long, but it will be worth it!
Still, I gotta be thankful. Holly Springs has been a great place to grow up, just FAR from anything and everything relevant! Still, living here has been awesome, and I promise to visit since I’m just moving one or two towns over!
I made a new playlist today called “Late Summer Playlist”. As Summer winds down, I collected a few songs that I am REALLY into right now. It’s great, because music is a huge passion of mine, and all of these songs have a common theme. In the same way that Summer nights end in a sea of fireflies and fireworks, these songs all have a noire-esque quality. I just imagine listening to all of them in a twilight haze. It’s absolutely awesome to think about, and whether it’s the calming melody from Wynter Gordon - Stimela, the European rave beats of Ma Cherie, or Frank Ocean’s trance-like Pyramids, each of these songs really represents how my Summer is coming to an end.
If you’re interested in any of em, just message me and I’ll give you a youtube link, or I’ll post em on here!
Rome was amazing. I had the time of my life exploring the Colosseum, the Pantheon, the Forum and Palentine Hill, and visiting the Vatican. Here are some pictures I took!
(Source: , via daily-relief)
I know most of the old school games that are remade usually are crap but I wish they would remake Killer Instinct… I don’t think they could fuck that up
A wrench in the gears. (A long…long reflection)
I feel pretty shitty. I only listen to the song Heaven (Candlelight Mix) by DJ Sammy when I know I want to let some emotions out, and I turned it on for the first time tonight in a while. Hence, emotions. Hence, weakness. I fucking hate weakness. There is no reason to show weakness to people. EVERYONE else is doing their best to keep their own problems inside, so why the fuck do people want to see MY weakness? It is unnecessary.
“We’re in heaven.” - Heaven
Still, the look on my friend’s face tonight when I broke the news was…heartbreaking, to say the ABSOLUTE least. It was a mixture of disappointment and devastation that I….I will just never forget. We were in it together…..but, such is life, it doesn’t turn out perfectly every time! I’m not mad at anyone but myself, and it’s not even anger, I’m just severely disappointed and confused.
“I hope you’re happy in the end” - Defying Gravity
It’s Diving all over again. I’m surrounded by people who are worse, equally good, or better than me, and I’m just passed by time and time again because of stupid mistakes. I lost my last diving meet by less than one point. I missed a qualifying position to the next round by one point. Let’s just say I have a habit of missing opportunities by the skin of my teeth.
“You say dreams are dreams, I ain’t gonna play the fool anymore, you say, cause I still got my soul” - Wind
“Reflection of fear brings shadow of nothing”-Wind
It sucks when you have such a great plan and outlook on life, and then in a single decision, it is shattered. When you finally think you have a purpose in life and you think you found it, I just can’t describe the excitement I approached each new day with. My closest friends will understand how EXCITED I was with my new outlook on life, and just like that, I feel like it’s pretty much disappeared. There are ALWAYS new opportunities on the horizon, but just the present thought of “You weren’t good enough” pretty much sums up my life.
“You’re still blind if you see a winding road, cause there’s always a straight way to the point you seek” -Wind
Well this time it changes. A really good friend taught me that you can face rejection over, and over, and over, and still your time will come to succeed and be useful to somebody, because I just witnessed it happen with her.
“It is said that people come into our lives for a reason, bringing something we must learn, and we are lead to those who help us most to grow” - For Good
Rejection is nothing to me anymore. It won’t phase me, because rejection is just a necessary step in the process of success. I’m….a better person than I used to be, and I’m not letting these things get to me. I’ve got so many options available to me right now, so the elimination of one (FOR NOW!) is NOT worth getting upset about.
So with those words in mind, I take my step into February 2012 with the conscious of a man who is determined to succeed, and will chase the things he wants most in life like a savage beast until I finally get them. I greet rejection like an old friend who once pushed me to the ground, but no longer does this…phase me.
Bring it on 2012. I’m so ready.
“Regardless of warnings, the future doesn’t scare me at all”. -Simple and Clean